Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Pa Breier
I don't know how many of you still read this, but here is a link to Jess' blog. It has current details about her dad. All prayers being accepted at this time.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
No More Ms. Fix It... Probably
As many of you who know me know, when it has come to times in my life of stress related to others' disagreements, I have always been the first one there to jump in, learn the story, and try to fix it. Sometimes it works... sometimes people move out.
It is almost beyond my control to have the overwhelming desire to try and make something work that is broken. I FIX STUFF. And by fix, I mean to my satisfaction... not necessarily to what is right.
Many an argument has been had over who is right and who is wrong in my presence. I think, for the most part, people trust my ability to rationalize a situation and come up with something that makes sense for the moment. That is a pretty sacred trust. One that weighs on a person and over time can break them down...
I have given a lot of my mental attitude and focus to a lot of people over the years. Some people, I truly believe that I have helped. Others, I am 99% sure I just prolonged some inevitable pain that they were going to have to deal with. My intentions weren't always honorable in those situations and those people, the people they were dealing with, and I ended up in worse shape for it. Fortunately, I found a way to come to peace with myself enough to stop doing things for dishonorable reasons... at least I don't have that guilt looming over my head anymore. However, there is still too much stress in dealing with my own life issues and still trying to 'fix' others.
So, I think I'm just going to be a friend from now on. I'm not going to try to fix you, your situation, or your life station. I won't butt in when I'm not wanted and I certainly won't be anything other than a good listener and a person you can trust not to stab you in the back (I haven't always been good at that either). If that is something you want and can handle from me, then I am all yours.
And yeah, I like pina coladas AND getting caught in the rain...
It is almost beyond my control to have the overwhelming desire to try and make something work that is broken. I FIX STUFF. And by fix, I mean to my satisfaction... not necessarily to what is right.
Many an argument has been had over who is right and who is wrong in my presence. I think, for the most part, people trust my ability to rationalize a situation and come up with something that makes sense for the moment. That is a pretty sacred trust. One that weighs on a person and over time can break them down...
I have given a lot of my mental attitude and focus to a lot of people over the years. Some people, I truly believe that I have helped. Others, I am 99% sure I just prolonged some inevitable pain that they were going to have to deal with. My intentions weren't always honorable in those situations and those people, the people they were dealing with, and I ended up in worse shape for it. Fortunately, I found a way to come to peace with myself enough to stop doing things for dishonorable reasons... at least I don't have that guilt looming over my head anymore. However, there is still too much stress in dealing with my own life issues and still trying to 'fix' others.
So, I think I'm just going to be a friend from now on. I'm not going to try to fix you, your situation, or your life station. I won't butt in when I'm not wanted and I certainly won't be anything other than a good listener and a person you can trust not to stab you in the back (I haven't always been good at that either). If that is something you want and can handle from me, then I am all yours.
And yeah, I like pina coladas AND getting caught in the rain...
Sunday, February 13, 2011
School, STXI, Snot, and Sunday
I know, I know. It has been entirely too long since I have posted anything. For that, I am sorry. I find it terribly difficult to come up with new things to say (I think way too much about trivial crap - shut up Jess).
Let us begin with school. I'm still in Baking. It is hard for me to get super excited about the baking... it is very formulaic. Once you get the method and formula, it is like mental masturbation... you just keep doing the same thing over and over. Like, this past Saturday, we made bread. Two weeks before, we made bread. Two weeks before that, we made bread. Some pies and cookies spread throughout, but it is all very cut and dry. I'm pretty sure, in a pinch, I could be a bread maker as my Clark Kent... but I'd have to be a chef as my Superman... I just love the rush of figuring out new flavors and just making stuff up on the fly and having it be just awesome. The breakfast casseroles that were made for STXI never had a recipe. The only 'formula' I had was for the custard.
Everything else, down to the nutmeg, came right out of my head. That's what gets me going... the thrill of the knowledge and the application coming together to make something that people go gaga over.
Speaking of STXI...
Wow! What an awesome time! You know it is a good time when someone has to show you video of the night because you remember cracking open the tequila bottle and that's about it... And waking up Sunday morning with a wad of 48 one-dollar bills in your pants pocket knowing that you must have kicked ass at LRC (again, even though you don't remember it).
The only unfortunate part was that I woke up Sunday morning with an awful sore throat and felt like poo. I have fought this crap for this whole past week. I'm pretty sure it was strep (can't be tonsillitis, don't have those) but here's the amazing part... about 2 months ago, I watched this documentary on PBS and they were talking about the power of vitamins. I'm sure there was some left-wing, Phil-type message in it, but there were some facts that I had no reason to refute. So, not long after, I started taking a multi-vitamin (to supplement any essential nutrients I might be missing in my diet), a 500mg Vitamin C tablet (anti-oxidant and immune booster), and a B-Complex tablet (helps in the conversion of food to energy and Niacin is a major mood enhancer). Back to the amazing part, with a little time (about 6 days) and these vitamins, my illness is disappearing. Now, I don't claim that the vitamins are curing illnesses, but I do find some merit in the fact that they are providing my body with the power it needs to fight it off itself without antibiotics or other drugs. I will say that I took Nyquil, but only to help me sleep and some naproxen to help ease the pain of the sore throat, but those are basically not going to do anything to cure an illness, they just help with the symptoms.
That brings us to today... Sunday. I love Sundays. It is the only day of the week where the only thing I really have to do is laundry. I can sit around in my underoos all day if I want too... and nobody gives me grief. I can blog, watch Food Network, pet my dogs, and burp...
I love Sundays.
Let us begin with school. I'm still in Baking. It is hard for me to get super excited about the baking... it is very formulaic. Once you get the method and formula, it is like mental masturbation... you just keep doing the same thing over and over. Like, this past Saturday, we made bread. Two weeks before, we made bread. Two weeks before that, we made bread. Some pies and cookies spread throughout, but it is all very cut and dry. I'm pretty sure, in a pinch, I could be a bread maker as my Clark Kent... but I'd have to be a chef as my Superman... I just love the rush of figuring out new flavors and just making stuff up on the fly and having it be just awesome. The breakfast casseroles that were made for STXI never had a recipe. The only 'formula' I had was for the custard.
Everything else, down to the nutmeg, came right out of my head. That's what gets me going... the thrill of the knowledge and the application coming together to make something that people go gaga over.
Speaking of STXI...
Wow! What an awesome time! You know it is a good time when someone has to show you video of the night because you remember cracking open the tequila bottle and that's about it... And waking up Sunday morning with a wad of 48 one-dollar bills in your pants pocket knowing that you must have kicked ass at LRC (again, even though you don't remember it).
The only unfortunate part was that I woke up Sunday morning with an awful sore throat and felt like poo. I have fought this crap for this whole past week. I'm pretty sure it was strep (can't be tonsillitis, don't have those) but here's the amazing part... about 2 months ago, I watched this documentary on PBS and they were talking about the power of vitamins. I'm sure there was some left-wing, Phil-type message in it, but there were some facts that I had no reason to refute. So, not long after, I started taking a multi-vitamin (to supplement any essential nutrients I might be missing in my diet), a 500mg Vitamin C tablet (anti-oxidant and immune booster), and a B-Complex tablet (helps in the conversion of food to energy and Niacin is a major mood enhancer). Back to the amazing part, with a little time (about 6 days) and these vitamins, my illness is disappearing. Now, I don't claim that the vitamins are curing illnesses, but I do find some merit in the fact that they are providing my body with the power it needs to fight it off itself without antibiotics or other drugs. I will say that I took Nyquil, but only to help me sleep and some naproxen to help ease the pain of the sore throat, but those are basically not going to do anything to cure an illness, they just help with the symptoms.
That brings us to today... Sunday. I love Sundays. It is the only day of the week where the only thing I really have to do is laundry. I can sit around in my underoos all day if I want too... and nobody gives me grief. I can blog, watch Food Network, pet my dogs, and burp...
I love Sundays.
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